Friday, September 30, 2011

Found In My Modern Brit Notes

Ezra Pound, 1920

“There died a myriad,

and of the best, among them,

for an old bitch gone in the teeth,

for a botched civilization,

Charm, smiling at the good mouth,

quick eyes gone under earth’s lid,

for two gross of broken statues,

for a few thousand battered books."

Last Night...

... I had a dream that I was besties.... and I mean BESTIES.... as in we did everything together like the Hardy Boys.... with this guy...



What!?

Where did that come from?

I blame the Greek food from Cazba.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Not My Degree

These last few days have been a little overwhelming. Teaching is going fine, I managed to make it through "A Global Historiography of the Modern World" and write a somewhat coherent paper about it, I'm doing OK with my historiography paper and have a plan for this weekend to work on it, plus see some friends and relax a bit, my students haven't been driving me too crazy. However, I've been dealing with some mega-issues with students. One student who hadn't shown up in three weeks now wants to start coming back to class since depression has been keeping him away. Another student started crying in the middle of class when I asked her to participate (I honestly wasn't mean or asking any hard questions) and then we had a twenty-five minute conversation afterwards where she told me about her lack of motivation and suicidal thoughts and how she wanted to drop out and go back home because she had no friends and has never been able to make friends. Oy. And then a signed a withdrawal form for another student who is dropping out because she realized that she's not ready for college yet and only came because she was given scholarship money.

I know how to teach. I know how to encourage and impart knowledge on students. I know how to grade and give feedback. I am not equipped to figuring out the intricacies of the human mind and know what my role is and sometimes even who to talk to about the problems these kids are having. I am so lucky that I didn't have those problems with I was in college but I hope I can be there for them when they're struggling not just academically, but emotionally and mentally as well.

It's just exhausting...

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

The DL on the STS

So many of you have been wondering what sort of ilk my students are. Words cannot describe them but I will do my best. Enjoy visualizing who I interact with four days of the week.

-As usual, the majority of my students are freshies. However, they are less pretentious and obnoxious as the students I had last year. For the most part, they seem intent on learning and getting done what they need to get done. It's a little refreshing.

-I do of course have upper classmen. They are, again, for the most part, great. They really help legitimize the things that I'm saying. And don't sit there like bumps on a log.

-Three students are named Elizabeth, two are named Christian and two are named Chris. Clearly there was a year when parents didn't have a lot of variety in their baby-naming.

- I also have a Marlene, Mayren, Melina and Marina. That's not at all confusing.

- One of my students is apparently a Paranomal Investigator. How do I know this? She wrote her paper on it. She belongs to a legit paranormal investigation organization. I didn't actually know that this was a real thing, other than what you see on TV.

- One kid wrote his paper on Glee. The assignment was to pick a current event and look at either side of the issue. Again, he picked Glee.

- A few kids wrote about the Palestinian and Israeli conflict. Some of their info was very incorrect. I made note of that. One kids wrote about the Israeli. Like there is just one Israeli wreaking havoc in the Middle East. I've named him Moshe. Maybe if Moshe was gone, there would be peace in the Middle East.

- If I had a dollar for every time a kid apologized for not being prepared, I could almost quit my job.

- One kid nearly had a meltdown in class a few weeks ago and then I had to deal with him being ridiculous in class (balancing pencil on his upper lip- who does that??). He's the first kid that I've wanted to throw being study skills into his face. Which I didn't because that's awful.

- My kids talk in class (during discussions, not on the side), which is really nice.

- I don't know if it's just the mood of this class in general (this freshmen class), but for the most part, they seem ready and willing to work and get their stuff done. Not that they turn in their work all the time but they don't seem antagonistic to the process.

-I only have three international students. One has been here from Mexico for a year and her English is amazing. One is from Ethiopia and is working pretty hard. One if from Saudi Arabia and he's awesome. I'd probably try to be his friend if I was his age. He's so intent on learning English, especially academically. Oh, and there's also a kid from Antigua. Which yes, I know, is international, but he's got a good grasp on English. And a fun accent. And tickets to the Mango Festival in August.

-Sometimes I feel like a broken record when I talk to him. Would they be better served if I just tape recorded myself and had it playing on repeat when I meet with them one-on-one? It may improve my sanity.

- My kid from Antigua taught me that there are 365 beaches there. That's the same number of days in a year. I feel like there is a book deal/blog/movie in there. Maybe I should just take a year off and make that happen.

- Two of my kids are from NH. One is from Keene and the other is from "far, far away.... near Maine", according to Danielle.

- There's one girl who is like me five years ago. She wants to go on the London trip and live in England forever and ever.... sound familiar? :)

-One girl seems to well up and tear up every time I try to talk to her. I don't know if it's remorse about her not turning ANYTHING in, or it's allergies, or I just an so mean that she cries but it's a little disconcerting. I promise I'm not being horrible to her. I just asked her how I could help her stay on top of turning her homework in.

- I've had four students come to talk to me in my office and break down. I really need to remember to bring some tissues in next week. I feel bad not being able to offer them anything when tears are pouring down their face.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

A loooooong day

One of the best and worst days of the semester is when I meet one-on-one with my students. I love having the chance to talk to them one-on-one, call them out on where they may be lacking and getting to know them and their personality and quirks a little better. It's also considered the worst day because first of all, it's so long. Today I met with students from 8:30-3:30 with half an hour out for a quick coffee break. Tomorrow I meet with students from 12:00-4:00 nonstop with no break. It's exhausting. It also becomes incredibly repetitive. Most of the students have very similar goals and so I find myself saying the same sorts of things over and over again, just to different students. I feel like a broken record. Maybe next time I need to just meet with them in big groups- it'll cut down on the amount of time that I talk about the same things over and over again.

Now, after my long day, I have loads of grading to look forward to. I'm nearly done with their short assignment and then get to read a bunch of long essays. It's possible that you will be able to find me tonight, around 8:00 pm, curled up in the fetal position, sobbing. This may also be the results of finishing my grading and moving on to the loads of reading I need to sort through in order to be prepared for a meeting with my professor about my historiography paper on Thursday. Honestly, I think I'm dreading the six-page paper a LOT more than the twenty-five page paper. I don't do well with keeping things short. I like to expand on my thoughts and make things detailed. And the worst part is I can't even have anything to drink since I'm on anti-biotics... yes, my cough STILL hasn't gone away. Oy. Here's to hoping it happens SOON.

Sigh... I know this is a lot of complaining but really, I do have a good life. And lots of people supporting me. And yummy food in my house. And three more groupons left for frozen yogurt.

OH, and by the way, NEIGHBORS, when it's 6:37 am, it's not necessary to shriek at your housemate/son/booty call/whatever to get his a$$ moving to leave the house and then belch loudly. Some of us still have 45 mins til our alarms go off. Yeah, you know I'm talking to you, white trash neighbor in the house behind me who has an unhealthy relationship with her cat. I know where you live.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Friday, September 16, 2011

Cooking With Michal- Pesto-rific Episode

It's been awhile, folks! But here is another episode of Cooking with Michal and it's a double feature! Tonight we'll be learning how to make pesto chicken and pesto pasta. Both super easy and super delicious.

Start by heating the oven to 350F. Take out two pieces of chicken. If you don't like touching raw meat, then I'm sorry, you will have to deal.


Then take a jar of pesto and use a spoon to scoop out the pesto onto the chicken. Make sure the spoon doesn't go back into the jar if it's touched the chicken. Then we just have raw chicken germs in the yummy pesto.


Coat the chicken on both sides with the pesto. Again, you may have to touch chicken. Or use a knife. And may I just add that this is weird angle... what's going on?


Put the chicken onto a baking pan on top of some tin foil and put in into the oven for twenty minutes.
Then start boiling a pot of water on the stovetop.

When the water's boiled (put in some salt to help), put in any kind of past you'd like. I would recommend anything but spaghetti or angel hair. I like elbow pasta. Or the twirly kind. I clearly am skilled in my Italian pasta vocab.

Now, while that's happening, it's time for prep. Slice a few pieces of a ripe tomato and slice a few pieces of Mozarella cheese.

Half a bunch of baby/cherry tomatoes and grate some fresh Parmesan cheese. None of that green stuff from a can.

It will be colorful.
When the timer rings, take out the chicken and carefully lay the tomato slices and then the Mozarella slices on top. Stick back into the oven for about another five minutes.

When your pasta is done, drain and put into a bowl.

Dump as much pesto as you want into the bowl and mix up until your white pasta is now green.

Then add the baby tomatoes and the Parmesan cheese and mix all around.

When the Mozarella has melted onto the chicken, take out of the oven, plate and enjoy!



Conversation about Freshmen

Me: They're freshmen.
Dori: They are.
Me: They'll learn.
Dori: They will.

That is all.

Oh my heavens


I have no idea what the hell I'm doing...

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Schloshed as Schlegel

Kerry teaches Political Philosophy next door on Tuesdays and Thursday and man, can he project! I hear pieces of his lecture and today he's discussing John Stuart Mill.

Which only makes me think of this...

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Boise Broadway

One thing I have MISSED from home is going to see different shows at OCPAC. Even in London I got to see a few things but it's been a long time since I've seen a show in Boise.

Until now...

I just got the list for this upcoming season and it's awesome! Here's what I have to look forward to.





But I am the MOSTEST excited for THIS! Cannot wait to see War Horse!!!!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

New Favorite Website...

Oh man, this is like 1405 shades of awesome. It combines my love of music with my love of awkward photos with my love of hilarious captions. This could really make my productivity go down....


Click the link.... click it NOW!!!!!

SOTM

Another Song of the Moment- so inappropriate but I cannot get enough of this musical....

Monday, September 12, 2011

Living History

My sister wrote a blog about what 9/11 means to her as a member of the military. I thought I would write one from my point of view: a historian’s.

The idea of what history is, what a historian does and how one looks as history have been banging around my brain these last few weeks. In History 500, we’ve been talking about how a historian studies history and one of the ways that you have to do that is get rid of all your biases. We cannot inflict our biases of the present into the past. So how do we look at 9/11 without a bias? It’s near impossible to try and put ourselves back into the mindset of those thousands of people on the streets and apartments of New York City, the Pentagon and Flight 93 on that fateful day.

Yesterday I watched a History Channel Documentary called “102 Minutes that Changed America”. Ever single shot is comprised of footage from normal people on the streets. While watching this, I tried to put myself into their mind and found it difficult.

When the first plane hit, the response seemed to be strictly emotional- confusion, shock, concern, questions. No one had ever really seen anything like it before.

It’s impossible to watch without thinking: you poor, unsuspecting people. The nightmare you are about to encounter is unimaginable.

And then the second plane hits. The emotions change to fear and anger. One is an accident, two is an attack. Two is not a coincidence- it’s a thought-out attack. Words that we now bandy about willy-nilly- words like Al-Quaida, Bin Laden, Afghanistan, Taliban- are just far away people and places, things the general populace hardly even knows about.

Firemen, police officers, security guards, EMTs, FBI from all over the city flood towards the towers. With precision and authority they outstretch miles and miles of house. Fire extinguishers are lined up outside the lobbies. The police keep moving civilians out of the way, moving them farther and farther away from the towers. Reporters in the choppers mention that it looks like the fires are starting to abate.

What makes things just a little worse that they already are is if you zoomed back from the scene, you’d see a gorgeous blue sky, not a cloud in sight, green parks dotted amongst the house and buildings. A beautiful scene if not for the black scar now burning on the New York City skyline.

And again, it’s impossible to watch today without three words going through your head over and over again: they’re gonna fall…. They’re gonna fall…. They’re gonna fall….

And they do. Nobody expected this. All the crews were thinking about was getting into the towers and rescuing those that were waving flags out of the windows, calling 911, getting up all of the hundreds of stairs to bring people down. The second tower hit goes first. It’s down in a second and people start running. Following close at their heels is a huge cloud of ash, soot, smoke, dirt and debris. Within a minute, a five-block radius of lower Manhattan is transformed into a nuclear disaster zone. People are covered in gray ash, the streets look like a light snow has fallen, nobody can breathe, mad chaos ensues as people run away from the site and firefighters, spines as stiff as ramrods, march towards the site, still intent on saving people, despite being dazed and uncertain.

And then the second one goes, falling straight down on itself. It’s strangely artistically beautiful, if it wasn’t so horribly terrifying.

What to do now? The World Trade Center plaza is filled with debris, papers, burning pieces of the building, dust, and ash. Firemen and police officers survey the scene. How is this all going to get cleaned up? How will we ever recover? How will be rebuild? They don’t know it at the time but it will get cleaned up. It will cost lives, lungs and the health of those involved but it was get cleaned up. And

People on the street are being interviewed. They are crying. They are angry. They are confused. Many declare that war must be declared. Would they still be saying the same ten years later, as we are still entrenched in a war in two different countries with no end in sight? Again, that is putting our present biases into the minds of those living in the past.

Ten years later, we try to look back and make sense of all the pieces. We try to put ourselves into the minds and bodies of those who experienced 9/11 in front of their eyes. We try to answer the still unanswered hundreds of questions. As historians, we keep our eyes firmly fixed on the past but continue to move forward. By watching what has happened and simultaneously gathering new information as each day, week, month, year, decade, century go by, we piece together the puzzle and discover new answer to these questions. They may not all every be answered. But I do know that if we takes our eyes away from the past and allow it to die, our present dies along with it. Our future dies along with it. That is the lesson of 9/11. There is no way of undoing what happened on that day ten years ago. But we must accept it as part of who we know are and who we continue to become each day.


This Week Has Been Brought to You By the Letter F

For friends...

This week was just a parade of interactions with friends over skype and in person.

It started out with a sister chat- minus one who for some reason decided to work out instead of chat with us.

I also talked to this Hottie McTottie- we're both super attractive.


And then on top of that, I got some facetime with this incredible lady!


Then on Tuesday and I got chat with these two girls- we tried to all chat at the same time but it didn't work.



Wednesday I was unexpectedly surprised by this girl who brought me a wedding invitation.


Bright and early Thursday morning this girl and I had a short conversation.


Friday I spent relaxing with this kiddo and her parents in their backyard, enjoying the firepit, listening to music and looking at the full moon.


Saturday morning I was also unexpectedly surprised by an impromptu skype session with her.


The rest of Saturday was spent with this girl most of the day and we had a blast at Art in the Park and Rediscovered Bookstore Wine and Book Tour.


Sunday was quiet except for my first Zumba experience also with the above- mentioned friend.

It was a good week. Thanks, letter F.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Nerves and Expectations

So I got my first grad school paper back last night and found I had earned a B+. For a minute, I was elated, especially because my prof said that there were no A's. So this was awesome. And then after that minute of elation, I started to get nervous. There is not a lot of room for improvement with a B+ and there is a LOT of room for regression. I was already nervous about my second paper because it didn't feel as smooth as my first and a lot of the errors I made in my first paper, I also apparently made on my second paper (which is to be expected.... I didn't know at the time that they were errors....) Regardless, I am now a bundle of nerves. I want to continue to do well and continue to produce material that I can be proud of and that my prof will respect and appreciate. But I don't know if I can. I want to be able to show steady improvement but am just filled with nerves, especially about these next two papers. I have no idea how on earth I am going to take a 300 page book with articles by at least 30 different historian authors and respond to it in two pages. Similarly, I don't know how on earth I am going to get my ideas onto two pages in response to those articles in the picture I posted a few days ago. How is that even possible!? On the plus side, I so far feel VERY confident about my discussion and participation in class. It is SO nice to be able to converse with other intelligent people who are prepared, sometimes slightly combative (in a good way), passionate and intriguing with solid ideas that they are able to properly convey. Class last night was great and I continue to look forward to it each week.

If I can just get past these papers....

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Colors of the Rainbow


... in my dinner.... here's what I made for me and Bailie from the Farmer's Market.... so yummy!

Boise Art

Back in the day, when I was hanging out with Bailie for the weekend, we went downtown for some dinner, bookstores, Record Exchange (where I bought so many CDs..... oh so many.... for so little money....) and some art. We caught a glimpse of a piece of artwork in one of the alleys and so before going to get some frozen yogurt, we went to check it out. It was incredible. The area is called Freak Alley and the walls are just covered with beautiful, large, unique paintings. Just check them out.